Rat Patooty

I have been in a Disney movie kick. I LOVE Disney movies, they make everything seem so perfect and possible. I wish I had a little mouse living under my hat turning me into a puppet chef. I wish I had mice to clean my house, get me dressed in the morning, and make me extravagant gowns for a ball where I would meet my prince (Nels). I want to steal the moon, and have hundreds of yellow pill shaped minions that don't speak English, but I would be able to understand them anyways. I want wings so I can fly with Peter and the lost boys, and have great adventures. Really though right now I just want a mouse to cook me Ratatouille. Since I don't have a mouse, does someone who doesn't walk on all fours, eats through whatever stands in the way of it's food and poops Everywhere, Do you want to make me some? Everything always tastes better when someone else makes it. Especially a mom, my mom.

If you haven't guessed I'm watching Ratatouille!!! :)

Today I'm having a pity party for ME!!!! Wanna join! Misery loves company. :) We had an awesome vacation away. An entire week with family at the beautiful Bass Lake. Now I'm am trying to get back into my "routine" and I'm realizing, well I've always been very aware, but I'm just now having it thrown back into my face (by my own doing) that my "routine" Sucks! I'm frustrated I can't find a job, but yet that I don't want to look for a job I just want to have one. I'm frustrated that I'm not who I used to be and that I don't really like who I am most of the time. I'm frustrated that it's so hard to make friends that want to do something besides just the few passing words at church. I'm frustrated that they see me as a baby sitter not a friend. It makes me want to be closer to home so that I could at least have a relationship with my sisters. That we could hang out the way we used. I'm just irritated today and so I feel all my insecurities are right in front of me.