BABY MAGIC

WE ARE HAVING A BABY!!! We are very excited and terrified at the same time. Well I am. I have always been ready to be a mom, but now that it is 6 months away it's a little scary. The rest is a novel, so if you don't care stop here.
We found out a week or so before Thanksgiving. Nels was gone for the weekend on a "guys trip." His brothers, dad, and he get together in the fall to go to a football game down in San Diego. He left on a Thursday, and before he left I told him I was going to take a pregnancy test, but expected it to be negative because the few I have taken in the past are always negative, even when I think I HAVE to be pregnant.
We weren't trying to get pregnant in fact we taking precautions to not get pregnant. TMI? I just always think MAYBE. I was waiting for a morning to take the test, because it says levels are higher in the morning. Saturday I went to the dollar store to buy a couple test. Why waste $10 or more on a stick I'm going to pee on and it not even be positive??? I woke up early; peed on my stick, waited the 3 minutes, checked, and then proceeded to freak out!! I called Nels immediately but seeing as it was early morning and he didn't have to be up he ignored my call. Can you believe it?
I decided since he didn't answer my call I would wait for him to get home to tell him he was going to be a daddy. I got ready, went to church and then decided after church I was going to go get a REAL pregnancy test. I ran to the store(I feel it was justified, shopping on Sunday. Judge as you will.) got a REAL test and went home and proceeded to get a positive.
I waited all day for Nels with the tests sitting on the bathroom counter. He got home late that night, went into the bathroom and then back to the bedroom without even noticing the pretty little pee sticks on the counter. I was surprised he didn't notice so I said "go look in the bathroom."
He looks at me puzzled and goes to see.
"what is this?
"I'm pregnant!"
"Yeah right! You've been home all weekend. How do I know you didn't get one of your pregnant friends to give this to you?"
"It's mine!"
"Take another one, I don't trust this"
He's of course smiling and joking the entire time people.
I Took yet another one and confirmed his suspicions. We have been discussing names since we got married. He is convinced that if it's a boy we are going to name it Battlehammer Magic Johnson, so for short we call the baby, baby Magic.
I am due on July 7. So we just reached our 15 weeks. I am still sick which is a bummer, because it's hard to work full time and be sick full time. I can't wait to see what were having and to feel this little bambino/bambina kick and move.

NEW JOB!!!

I put exclamation marks afterwards because I'm trying to psych myself about it. I am a cashier at Performance Chevrolet. I started yesterday morning. I am a wreck. I have cried the past two days. I know you're thinking "yep she's CRAZY!" I was filing yesterday,(because it seems whenever a company gets a new girl they decide they don't know how to file and that somehow since they hate that she will like it.) Anyhow I was filing and I had a very difficult time trying to keep my tears back. As I walked out the door of the office to my car the tears just came, I then spent the ENTIRE time bawling my eyes out. After my break I went back to work and was okay, and kept my emotions in check, but then as soon as I got in the car to head home the waterworks were on again.
I have always had a hard time with "first days" college, jobs, moving away, efy, I'm just no good at them. I don't like the unknown, especially in a job. I'm trying to be brave and stop the crying, but for now I think the best I can do is make sure it happens only when I'm alone :)
I'm not crazy, irrational? Yes, but not crazy. Just having a really hard time adjusting to an overwhelmingly lot of information.

Rat Patooty

I have been in a Disney movie kick. I LOVE Disney movies, they make everything seem so perfect and possible. I wish I had a little mouse living under my hat turning me into a puppet chef. I wish I had mice to clean my house, get me dressed in the morning, and make me extravagant gowns for a ball where I would meet my prince (Nels). I want to steal the moon, and have hundreds of yellow pill shaped minions that don't speak English, but I would be able to understand them anyways. I want wings so I can fly with Peter and the lost boys, and have great adventures. Really though right now I just want a mouse to cook me Ratatouille. Since I don't have a mouse, does someone who doesn't walk on all fours, eats through whatever stands in the way of it's food and poops Everywhere, Do you want to make me some? Everything always tastes better when someone else makes it. Especially a mom, my mom.

If you haven't guessed I'm watching Ratatouille!!! :)

Today I'm having a pity party for ME!!!! Wanna join! Misery loves company. :) We had an awesome vacation away. An entire week with family at the beautiful Bass Lake. Now I'm am trying to get back into my "routine" and I'm realizing, well I've always been very aware, but I'm just now having it thrown back into my face (by my own doing) that my "routine" Sucks! I'm frustrated I can't find a job, but yet that I don't want to look for a job I just want to have one. I'm frustrated that I'm not who I used to be and that I don't really like who I am most of the time. I'm frustrated that it's so hard to make friends that want to do something besides just the few passing words at church. I'm frustrated that they see me as a baby sitter not a friend. It makes me want to be closer to home so that I could at least have a relationship with my sisters. That we could hang out the way we used. I'm just irritated today and so I feel all my insecurities are right in front of me.

Tahoe!

This last weekend we went up to Tahoe for Nels' work party. It was on Saturday so a few of his coworkers and us decided to go up early on Friday to go camping for the night. We haven't been camping since we got married so I was all on board with going. We went up set up camp and then sat by the fire and talked and laughed with everyone. The next morning was the party at Pope beach. Nels and I sat under a tree in the shade and read, ate, and chatted. It was an amazing weekend! It was so relaxing and peaceful. I didn't get any pictures of our campsite unfortunately, but most campgrounds look the same. So imagine Tall pine trees, tents, and dirt. WONDERFUL!!!!

I did however get a good picture of this cute little Cuss!!! I love this baby!

New nightstands!!! We went to Monterey Ca, last weekend to get away from the heat and spend the weekend with one of my Best Friends Lindsay. We went to good will and found this little gem.

I knew that I wanted it to be white with blue tinted or green tinted crystal knobs. I have yet to buy those. (harder to find then I thought) Anthropologie has them, but they are $8 a piece and I need 7! You do the math, not happening especially since I got the nightstand for $6.

I painted my good will nightstand, but then realized that the current one needed to be painted to match. So I painted it. I don't have a before picture but it was just a regular oak color.

I love them! All they need is the knobs and they will be adorable!

I miss

These girls!!! These girls were my freshman roommates, they made my first year of living away from home the greatest!!! I love them so much! Every time I think of them I get a little sad. I love my life now as it is with the husband, but man was this a great year! We had so much fun. We used to laugh at practically anything. I have very memorable times of that year like; shooting Allison in the eye with the milk carton lid, (on accident of course) our quote wall, beauty tips with Bertha, Preference on the Heber Creeper.( My dancing has never been better than dancing on a rocking train) dying each others hair, sharing illnesses, Jen and I both had Bronchitis at the same time and I remember the other four listening to us talk in our high squeaky prepubescent voices. I have not found any other girls that I have gotten along with as well as I did with these 5. They are AMAZING! I miss you all and wish we lived closer together!!!